“So I find myself on my knees and gathering up grain for the day of need.”
It seems that all around me, friends, family members, all sorts of loved ones are going through a myriad of painful situations. There is so much hurt surrounding me. I have been called to prayer in a such a stronger sense these days. I have been reading books like, Becoming a Prayer Warrior trying to strengthen my ability to intercede on their behalves. However, I am struggling with the sense that I must be doing something wrong. I am not seeing the type of fruit in my prayers for others.
So my focus is to get more of the word in me so it can find its way out of me at the precise moment needed in prayer.
I am also currently in a time of great abundance. I am experiencing the fruit of many hours invested in training up team members. I am experiencing the margin that results from having trained others to do ministry. It is truly an amazing feeling to be able to float above the ministry and strategically think of legitimate ways that we as a team can improve it, ways that we can move the ball forward down the field. In so many ways for so long I have been simply a fierce doer of ministry. Now I can honestly say, that there is a team in place that knows enough to do the ministry to an acceptable level without further training.
Good thing that I don’t feel the least bit satisfied with where we are with things. We will continue to grow and strategically advance this mission.
As I type this, I realize that the current fruitfulness that I experience in ministry leadership might teach me a thing or two about my struggles in the realm of intercession. Could it be that my current level of abundance as a result of heavy time investing without fruit, is to teach me to persist, to invest, to pour into today what I plan to reap tomorrow?
So I find myself on my knees and gathering up grain for the day of need.
I feel as though I need to wisely plant seeds, shrewdly store grain, and with guided hands precisely take steps forward.
The seeds I am being called to plant now are in the spiritual.
Seeds of prayer.
Seeds that I must, with trust, believe will one day produce a harvest greater than I can imagine and one that will fulfill the ultimate plans of the Lord.
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!” Psalm 27:13-14 NKJV
Knowing that the Lord, Jehovah-Jireh, will provide for me, a question that I am learning to continually ask myself is, “What can I do today to better prepare for tomorrow?”
When you look back at the events of your past and stare closely at the situations of today, can you see similar patterns that show you how God might have you respond to better prepare for your tomorrow?
Definitely! Its an ongoing preparation for tomorrow. We are being formed and prepared to reign this earth. The bible talks about the New Earth and how we shall reign in it, we need a little of what Joseph went through so we can grow in wisdom and faith in our Lord, so we can reign. I think of past situations and how they drew me closer to the Lord showing me that He will never leave me nor forsake me. I also look at our current situation where He will show His glory through miracles because it is only Him who can pull us out of the situation we’re in. How do we prepare? We wait on Him in reading His word, expecting and learning about His goodness, helping and encouraging others. Its all we can do Hope in Him. The Holy Spirit will take care of the “lessons” we’ll learn and we just rest in His faithfulness. When tomorrow comes, we’ll be there for the struggling, we’ll be the blessing they desperately need and we will speak words of wisdom to lift the broken hearted.
Amen Deb, Thanks for sharing. I am still praying for you all as you wait on Him.
Thank you 🙂